March 3rd - Day 2

Today was a rough day.  Between thinking that I could work and driving and everything else I did not feel good. I really should have stayed in bed. Really.  Well, that's not what happened and I had to face the music and my decisions.  It's funny because the fast is on my mind a lot and even though I am not physically fasting I am trying to be aware of what I am saying and doing.  It's kind of cool too, my coworkers know that it is the time of the Fast and when I got myself a tea, someone's first question was, "Aren't you fasting?"  To which I would respond that being sick I was not obligated to.  These are good questions to hear though, it keeps me honest.  So many times in the past I would not tell people what I was doing and then if I did break the fast I wouldn't feel like I was lying.  Even though I was.  You realize that there is no clergy in the Baha'i Faith?   (check about 17 or 18 paragraphs down after the link) There is no confession, so really the only person I was lying to was myself.  I'm not saying that I'm "Mr. Spiritual" or anything, I'm just saying it's helped keep me honest.

So my spirits low and my body feeling quite miserable I tried to find something positive out of my day.  The real benefit I think to being this sick is that when I sing I sound like the lead singer of The National.   That dude has one heck of a bass tone and can sing so well.  Plus their music is on the melancholy side of things and it fit my mood perfectly.  So I sang in my awesome bass voice that cracked every now and then, but since no one else was in the car with me I think I would have done them proud.

As for the fast, I am still thinking about keeping my attitude positive and to try and consider what else fasting really means.  I don't have any thoughts on it right now.  Maybe tomorrow.

Here's my image:

This bright pink color matches my thoughts perfectly.  Dark and grey with a little color in the forefront to lift my spirits up.  See you tomorrow.